You're the DJ: what are the next five songs coming up after the break?
1. Bad Reputation - Thin Lizzy
2. Teenage Hustling - Tori Amos
3. Fais Semblant - Teri Moise
4. Flaming Red - Patty Griffin
5. I'm on Fire - Bat for Lashes
Today, I dusted off my altar for the first time in a long time. I think I am finally no longer trying to make myself fit into an image that feels uncomfortable. I should be more learned about Buddhism, but today it was enough to come back to the comforting rhythm of practice.
I'm not sure if the perfect moment of serenity I had later on today was because of the thirty or so minutes or so I spent really meditating on my happiness, but wherever it came from, it was great. It might have lasted only seconds, but in those 10 or 15 seconds, I knew without a doubt that:
everything was gonna work out fine
this time next year, things will be very different
that your issues are not problem
i can't fix you
i understand why you act the way you do, but that doesn't make it ok
the love i have for you and the love you have for me is perfect just the way it is
the debt is paid. let me say it again. the debt is paid
the present is all i have control over
perfectionist tendencies create too much stress, i just decide to go with my A-game instead
i'm pretty fly
My perfect moment of serenity also has me thinking - and completely without malice or bitterness now - why do we still blog? Will anybody read this and give a damn? There must still be something I find interesting or useful about it, because I could have just wrote this in my paper journal. But seriously, why...what are we doing with the blogging, the social networking, etc.? There's a point to it; on some days, I just don't know what that is. I don't care the way I used to.
And blah blah blah...ad nauseum. Oh whatever. Another abbreviated post that I'll try to develop into a full-blown entry, but will probably lose interest in. Life continues.
So...it's September.
My September started off kind of interesting. I was all set to get my hurr did. We go out to the car to find our passenger-side window busted out. WTF, mate?
After talking to the insurance company and all that, and being mad at the world, and wondering why this happened, we got over it and went ahead with our Love Weekend at the Millennium Hotel. We had planned this weeks ago as a last-minute relaxation pseudo-getaway before school started again.
We went ahead because honestly, if someone wanted to come and bust out all the other windows, so be it. If they wanted to steal the ish, go right ahead. It's just a car after all. Nice to have, but life goes on without it.
The Love Weekend was great. Sounds corny, but I think you need those little getaways so you can fall in love all over again. Which is kinda what happened. It was right on time. And I'm still feeling good from it.
Anyway, does anybody know of a good detox routine? I want to go on a good cleansing routine, but I still want to eat solid food, and I don't want some lemonade with cayenne pepper or some crazy mess like that. LOL Suggestions? Please!
Tori tour tix go on sale Friday morning. Holla if you hear me.
